I am getting tired of going to school everyday (as if I am doing this already for a long time :lol: )....actually this is only mah second day at school....and I can feel the pressure....right now....I can also feel mah stupidity...I lost mah important hand-outs....and I can't answer the last item in mah assignment :x ...grrrr.....
mah dream last night is kinda weird...it seems like I am kissing someone who I shouldn't have to ... :shock: ......and I'm sure you will be very shock once I reveal the relationship of that person to me...so it is better to keep it as a secret .... I read a book that has something to do with dreams....and it states that.... once you saw yourself kissing someone who u shouldn't have to kiss in your dreams.... it means that someone will betray you....... hmmmm.....[i]I wonder what jeffrey is doing ryt now.....[/i] :?
Habol ng tingin Matang nagkukunwaring malambing Ayos na kay bango Pilit pagandahin Para ako’y mapansin
Sabog na pag-iisip Hindi alam ang gagawin Anong kailangan At hindi ka mapasa akin
* Saan ba Kailan ba Ito lang ang alam kong gawin Paano ba, ano ba Wala na bang ibang paraan
Nais kong matikman Ang yakap mong napakadiin Ngiting kay saya Tinatangay ako ng hangin Naging malapit sa taas Sa panalangin na ika’y mapasa ‘kin Walang na bang para sa ’kin *
Pipilitin Aaminin Hindi alam ang gagawin Lalapitan Sasabihin Hindi alam ang gagawin Hindi alam ang sasabihin Hindi alam ang gagawin Hindi alam ang sasabihin Hindi alam ang gagawin *[/i]
they say that ....[i]you can only see the importance of a person once he is already gone.....so u better cherish every moment with him[/i]... you see? ... little reminders like this means alot ... honestly I ignored this b4 but now... I can say that this is 100% true... I lost mah boyfriend in about 4 days (I think!).... within those days I already realized how much I love him...yikes!...sounds corny!.... so watch out guyz!!!
I watched vanilla sky yesterday afternoon .... the concept was great ... especially the lucid-dream-thing ... I might wanna undergo in that process also ...coz' dreaming is what I usually do.... all I can do is to dream...maybe my purpose here on earth is just to dream... so that I could make my own destiny :D ....what do u think?... wonderful idea ryt? ... I wish lucid dream really exist .... :( ....coz' I really need to get a new life :x ......[i]like bennie the dog[/i]
O, wag kang tumingin ng ganyan sa akin 'Wag mo akong kulitin, 'wag mo akong tanungin Dahil katulad mo, ako rin ay nagbago 'Di na tayo tulad ng dati, kay bilis ng sandali
CHORUS O, kay tagal din kitang minahal
Kung iisipin mo, 'di naman dati ganito Teka muna lang, kelan tayo nailing? Kung iisipin mo, 'di naman dati ganito Kay bilis kasi ng buhay, pati tayo natangay
[Repeat CHORUS]
Tinatawag kita sinusuyo kita 'Di mo man marinig, 'di mo man madama
these were taken during our retreat....definitely a memorable one! :)
This other one was taken during our field trip... it was actually outside ABS-CBN (one of the famous TV station here in the philippines).... and we were so excited to see the studios inside...especially the talents!!!....We also did see the group called FEELING F4... and I can say that most of the girls were gone crazy of these guyz
It's been a long time after my last post here...and within that time I've proven that, writing on my blog is really an effective idea to forget ur problems...in other words...just leave it 2 ur blog...well mah last relationship is the longest one...I've already gone 3 relationships since mah first year in high school...the first one dumped me...because of another gurl... really ouchy ayt?....the second one is really a tough one...it is more serious than the first one...as if we're already sure about our future...but still it didn't worked out:cry: ...do this, do that, don't forget to, if u do this, don't u even try to do this or else, what are my rules? ...just some of the common words I usually hear everytime I talked to him on the phone...I'm some kinda robot, ayt?...after that I promised to myself that I would not allow anyone to control me...and I would not take mah next relationship very seriously...its really a cold summer...and a really good-timing person came my way...u see, that time I am really longing for some comfort ... I feel very bad about myself...feels like I'm a total loser...I focused myself on this good-timing person...eventough the second one still tried to work things out...I still not gave him a chance...I don't know...I like both of them...but this third one really made me curious about him...of course as like what the other stories end...he became mah boyfriend...we became steady for almost 10 or 11 months...within those months my second boyfriend still tried to work things out...but I insisted that...I can't stand his bossy type personality...he did the same thing for almost 3 or 4 times...but to be honest to myself...yeah...I still have a feelings for mah past boyfriend...he is totally different from mah present boyfriend...he's funny, sweet & sincere. I am not trying to say that mah present boyfriend is totally a useless one...actually he is the most gentleman among them...and definitely the most innocent one...which really turned me on!....he is also sincere....but he is some-kinda serious, quiet and sensitive which I can't stand the most....sometimes I don't even answer the other line of the phone when I was talking to the second one...coz' I know that it is mah present boyfriend...& for sure...he will get mad of me....I don't know...actually I can't even understand myself....feels like I'm a traitor or something...but...how can I stand my present boyfriend if he is not always around....he doesn't even want to know what's inside of me...he usually calls at night and then after a short conversation...it will suddenly turn into a fight... :roll: weird huh!...& he always has a comment about me...although I know it is my fault....sometimes I can't accept it...coz' I think it is too much to take...I am here at home...doing nothing...having a problem...need some comfort....and where is he?....with his friends?:roll:.....ahhhhh....poor me....yeah!...u can call me a traitor....but in the end I still dumped mah second boyfriend....I still want to try work things out....but it didn't........we broke up last night (june24,2004)....:cry: ...b4, I can't wait this thing to happen because I thought I would be very free and happy....but the opposite thing happened....I can't easily be free from this rot....maybe this is mah karma :cry: ....I know this thing will happen....eventough I did the right thing.....I'm still a traitor.....he doesn't deserve to be fooled....b4, I am very envy with couples who are holding hands while walking, teasing with each other, laughing together, doing assignments together, sleeping together on the phone, etc.....but right now....I don't think I can still have the same attitude....coz' I've already know what's behind their sweetness....there's bitterness, lies, etc.....you can't find a perfect one...& you can't also search for ur love coz' love will come your way at a perfect time....at the age of 17 I already learned alot of things....right now....tracing mah life from the past....I can say that karma will always comes your way....and boyz are definitely demanding!....and oh!....there's also one more thing....I prove to myself that....right now....I still love mah third boyfriend...eventhough I've been attracted to the second one....I didn't regret dumping him....he will still be the almost perfect EX-boyfriend of mine......that's lyf!...ryt?....the most important thing----- [image]tholitz_478966258.gif[/image].......do u think this is some kind of a dramatic start for mah blog????
Since I could not entertain all of you visiting mah site..... let me intoduce to u mah...personal assitant... I told her to blow a kiss to anyone who visits mah site
.....GOD BLESS US ALL!!!
NAME: Malor
AGE: 17 yrs old
SEX: yes please! kidding aside!..female!
NATIONALITY: pure filipino
RELIGION: Roman Catholic
STATUS: In a relationship
HOBBIES: washing the dishes, taking
care of kids, cleaning the house.
definitely ur ideal house maid ^_^
INTEREST: deifinitely guitars!!!!
PETS: Guinea pig
Group:
Since I could not entertain all of you visiting mah site..... let me intoduce to u mah...personal assitant... I told her to blow a kiss to anyone who visits mah site
.....GOD BLESS US ALL!!!
